Yesterday the WWE posted this Tweet. The reasoning is well, it’s not sure why or what it means. But with the hashtag being quite similar to my name a lot of people messaged me asking if I finally got called up. Or if it had something to do with me. And well, unofficially it does.
I’m not associated with WWE. I don’t follow them on Facebook or Twitter. So this post came as a shock to me. But that’s not what I’m trying to get at.
What I’m gathering is that while WWE may be promoting something like Bray Wyatt, War Games or even the return of Dungeon of Doom. It has a lot to do what’s been in my head for the past few months.
I’ve been thinking it’s time to lock away wrestling for me. It’s time to just walk away. Give it up for a time being and let it get out of my head.
It sounds selfish, but then again I’ve been called that by numerous wrestlers who feel that I’m out to make a name for myself. When in fact all I’ve ever wanted from wrestling was to have a good time. At times I had that, but over the past few months to use a wrestling term, I’ve lost my smile.
While it’s been fun, it’s also been very time-consuming from driving hundreds and hundreds of miles, giving up time hanging with my family, spending thousands and thousands of dollars. It’s just not worth it. I’ve lost that loving feeling.
The places I’ve been, the towns, the states, the different arenas, American Legions, YMCA’s and what not. They were fun and I met a lot of great people. People I’d love to still keep in touch with. But maybe at something other than wrestling. Maybe a concert, a comedy show or even a baseball game. But wrestling it’s just not for me anymore.
I don’t want to be one of those guys who goes around and points blame to certain people and I won’t do that here. I’ll just keep it with the fact that I’ve walked away from wrestling before and I’ll return once again. Someday when I feel it’s time to come back and watch it again.
I’ve had fun don’t get me wrong one bit. I’ve loved sitting ringside for companies like 2CW, Xcite, House of Hardcore, Beyond Wrestling, World of Hurt Wrestling and the about ten or fifteen other companies I’ve attended. There’s a picture of me from an Xcite show that I wrote about and it shows me with the biggest grin I’ve ever had.
I love wrestling.
But we just need a break every now and then.
So to all the people I’ve met during these past few years in my independent wrestling lifestyle. From the fans, the wrestlers, the promoters, the referees, the photographers, the ring announcers even the one’s who’d be better off sitting home watching a New York Mets game. I want to say thank you, thank you from the bottom of my heart. I’ve had fun. It’s been the best past few years of my life.
The thing is I just don’t have the desire I once did to drive hundreds of miles just to sit ringside and watch wrestling. It’s been well over a month since I’ve watched more than five minutes of any wrestling at all. Be it WWE, TNA or anything online. I’ll still comment here and there on Twitter and the random Facebook groups I’m involved with. I’ll still talk about wrestling with people if you want. But I just… you know, I just don’t have it in me to do it anymore.
I’ll come back to wrestling, I always have in the past. I’ve left before due to other reasons but this is probably the first time I just don’t have it in me to continue. Other reasons I’ve left had been because the video store didn’t have anymore VHS tapes and I didn’t have cable. Or I had to stop watching because it was high school and I was a chick magnet. Or the whole def kiss situation.
Thank you to all those new friends I’ve made and don’t worry, just like Frosty The Snowman I’ll come back someday. But until then I’ll see you around!